I think theres something wrong with me.. how is it that over 1000 people arrived to this program and im an pretty much the only one who doesnt have a group of friends.. it like this EVERY PLACE I MOVE TO! there the 1 girl who i like who ends up being like a best friend, but the group i want to be in doesnt let me in.. its like they notice but dont acknowledge. my mom just asked me to post pics on FB.. really.. like i would want to photograph and remember the first few days at a new place where im ignored .. so now im sitting in my dorm eating a blueberry muffin in the dark and i hear laughing from girls outside my window.. hmm that sounds familiar.. oh yeah, with i was in my room at boarding with my curtain closed crying while i could hear girls laughing and talking.. that got better.. after 2 years! i got 3 weeks here.. so im pretty sure im gonna be happy to go back.. which i never thought would happen with where i live. wtf

and you.. now that your at school you dont talk to me.. like you try, but you dont. so try, k?

and you.. stop asking questions.. there annoying when im supose to be truly independent for the first time, k?

wtf.. nothing ever goes right. i shouldnt have moved.. i shouldnt have come.